Taking healing into my own hands 

This is when I started studying nutritional therapy and realised I could take this into my own hands. I changed my diet and did many different detox plans to give my body a boost to try and heal itself. My skin and gut health seriously improved but my smear tests were still always coming back with a slight abnormality. I left my consultant and went to a different hospital where they kept monitoring me. After a few years of my smear tests and a biopsy coming back as high grade cervical dysplasia, they suggested I got another lletz/leep procedure. I asked them to give me 6 months, which they agreed to. I went off and took an array of supplements I had done research on. Glutathione, an immune booster, DIM detox and salvestrols but I didn’t change my lifestyle or diet much. I felt I was pretty healthy! When I went back in 6 months the nurse showed me the photos of my cervix and it was obvious the cervical dysplasia had gotten worse! At this point I knew I was heading off to Costa Rica to work at a health retreat in the jungle. I had also done a lot more research and felt much more dedicated to healing myself. I asked them once more, to give me another 6 months. I think it’s important to add that I would never recommend anyone else to put off medical treatment for any illnesses or conditions that they suffer from if they are being recommended by a medical professional. This decision is up to each individual, I help my clients connect to their own bodies, so they can feel empowered to make their own decisions about their health. This was my decision and my body. I weighed up the risk factors and felt that I had time to give it one more push myself.

Healing in Costa Rica

So, off I went to Farm of Life, Costa Rica! Here I learned a new way of living and healing from food like I’d never seen before. Here I worked on removing stress from my life, connected with nature, meditated every day and practised yoga. Eating lots of fruits, greens and broth gave my body more energy to focus on healing rather than digesting heavy fats and protein. For 4 months I took a mushroom complex, which is an incredible immune booster. I also made anticancer green juices every day from the plants we grow on the farm, these included soursop leaves, mangosteen leaves, kale, noni leaves, turmeric, ginger, red pepper, lemongrass, holy basil, oregano, lime leaves and cilantro.

The plant medicine cacao was also a wonderful part of my journey also. I worked on self love, setting new healthy boundaries for myself. I let go of the resentment and fear, I worked on forgiveness and I learned to accept every part of me! The last thing I did every evening, was use a capsule internally directly on the cervix. This consisted of coconut oil and very small amounts of lemongrass oil, lemon oil and cannabis oil. We have to be very careful with these oils, as they are so strong and can be too much internally.

I realise that not everyone will be living in Costa Rica while healing and that’s why I create a unique protocol for each individual, taking in to consideration, where they are in the world, what time of year it is, and what kind of diet they would prefer to focus on. Maybe it’s plant based, maybe animal foods are incorporated. It’s very important that my client feels confident and will not find the healing journey stressful. I focused most of my energy into healing and knew I was going to succeed! My intention was so strong I knew I wasn’t going to fail. I help my clients set their own intentions for their healing journey, so they can feel confident and believe in their own healing journey.

There is a lot of scientific research around different natural cures for HPV, cervical cancer, cervical dysplasia and other viruses and unfortunately this is not shared in the hospitals. And, even though it’s anecdotal, the evidence is with all the women, including myself that is is possible to heal naturally from HPV virus and cervical dysplasia. I have seen it many times over the years working with clients.

From devastation to ultimate joy

When I went home to get my colposcopy I was absolutely devastated and couldn’t actually believe it when the nurse told me the cervical dysplasia looked worse again. She told me she looked at my file with the doctor and they both agreed I needed to get the lletz / leep procedure before heading back to Costa Rica again, but my results for the HPV virus may not come back in time. It was the Wednesday before leaving to come back to Costa Rica and I went in for my appointment still not sure what I was going to do when I saw the doctor. As it turns out the secretary had messed up and they couldn’t fit me in to see the doctor that day. I thought, OK that’s the way it’s meant to be! I’ll be fine for another 6 months.

But after getting an unbelievable amount of pressure from my family and friends telling me I needed to change my flights so I could get the lletz / leep procedure I didn’t know what to do. So I spent a lot of money and let many people down by being a week late to my job for a procedure I didn’t even want to get. But after all the emotional trauma I went through by being torn in 2 directions, I got a pain in my cervix and it made me feel like I needed to stay to get the lletz / leep procedure. I felt my body spoke to me!

So I changed my flights and got my appointment for the following Wednesday to get the lletz / leep procedure. I was a total mess knowing I would have to make a 35 hour journey on my own 2 days after getting this awful procedure done for the third time. I don’t ever remember being in such an emotional state about anything. I felt like a failure and my hope in healing myself naturally was diminishing. I went into hospital on the Wednesday and the Doctor saw me, I saw he had my new results in his hand. My heart started beating faster while I was trying to peep at the results before he could tell me. I asked him, “does that say HPV 16 negative?” “yes, it does”. Wow, wow, wow, what a turn around, I’d just spent the last 3 weeks in an emotional state of sadness and confusion only for all of it to be turned around to find out I had actually succeeded! HPV 16 negative. After having this for 14 years of my life, and it’s gone in just 4 short months of a healing protocol. Saying I was over the moon was an understatement. I’ve never had emotions shift so quickly in my life. The doctor did another colposcopy and told me he there was still a slight abnormality, but it was as small as a dot from a pen! I’m not sure what the nurse saw in my last appointment that made her think it was worse.

One crazy thing about this story is that if they didn’t mess up my appointment in the hospital, I probably would have had the procedure unnecessarily a week before my results came back. I’ve now learned to always wait for the results and get a second opinion before agreeing to get an invasive procedure done.